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Hi everyone I hope my all following fans are going well. Sorry everyone I couldn’t write and couldn’t post anything on blog because many times I’m not well, I’m too much depression and nothing feels good, depressed, sad, unhappy, unrelax, I’m ill physically by body, I have mental illness major depressive disorder and psychosis sometimes anxiety last 4 and 1/2 years. I have major illness last 17 years that I’m worried that’s irregular periods and hormones problems having PCO,S PCO,S this illness come in front this year 1st February 2018 now doctors want to confirm through blood test. I want to check up completely to know any more illnesses have body so I will contact soon doctor. I have last 17 years dandruff in scalp head hairs and it’s increased and effects my body other parts of skin. This year I contact dermatologist, endocrinologist. This year I have check my eyesight it’s clear there no problem. My body weight is too much gain its 98 kg due to illness so doctors refer me nutrition dietian. This year I take very hard decisions that I give my all artwork that I was made my own website and other social media sites / pages and want to start own artwork business making different stuff, product, but unfortunately my parents are not supporting me and not cooperative with me and not giving me money. So I give my all digital textile design, graphic design and digital abstract painting to a company free of cost. I will soon donate my all handmade paintings in hospital psychiatrist department and some few doctors. Right now I’m not feeling well so I will write soon with more details and post soon my handmade painting and drawing very love, devotion, passion, interests I had made all work but unfortunately I have to give my own work others because I have only this option.


My Experience with Psychotic Depression: Part 2

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This incident had happened  since last three years before when I was go daily there institute as well as he made home basically that bad man ( teacher) do work in house that he were taken on rent but not sure that house his or not he keep only girls to learn this fashion designing on  free of cost but no one known what he has in  own bad mind and plans and have  bad intention That he has own mind basically

He wants labor and wants to do physical relationship. He do and keep other girls physical relationship when any girl not came in his trap then he do kick of that girl just like when I not give him permission to do physical relationship then he touch my body forcefully. One another girl he kick because other girl not made victim of his physical relationship. He is not able to say teacher. He is a criminal.



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Sexual harassment at work. Man touching woman's butt.
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He take work two students one is mine and other girl also of commercial building and home  forcefully house chores.just like washing clothes and other houses accessories and dish washing cooking and pressing clothes. He do clean all house me and another girl because we not give him permission to do and keep physical relationship when he saw these two girls not came in my trap then he do another one magic or did myself his bad man intention was not good. He teach and do learn fashion designing and graphic designing on those girls that make daily victim of his physical relationship.




When he touch my body forcefully then on that day I am go in depression and psychosis disorder. And after I have leave that  place since 2013 17th September  Since 2013 to 2016 time period was too much terrible and panic and i have fear and afraid i wept a lot still sometime I weep. I have still hallucination, illusion, delusion, depression, I am suffering from this illness and try to do fight of this  illness.


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My Experience with Psychotic Depression: Part 1

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Hi MY age is 28 years old I m depression patient since 2013 or may be so many years. I m suffering this mental illness till now, suddenly one incident has spoiled my life mentally and physically. Since 2013, I m on medicine till now. I m taking medicine regularly day by day my mental illness change into different disease like anxiety, psychotic, PTSD, Depression many medicines has reactions on my mental and physical both health.

I was living normal life. I had no disease in my life. I was teaching since 2009 to 2013 in between that period one day my mom was searching a fashion institute for me that will only for girls. She found a fashion institute for me there I will learn fashion skill I quit my school and home tutor job for my passion of fashion designing.

I joined that fashion institute and show my fashion skill of fashion institute owner since 2010 to 2013 between period times. I went there only for one day. He wants I join his institute and give him benefits but I don’t know what he wants what kind of that person.

Next day I went there but I see there was no learning according to international level and I quit that institute on the second day when I observed it’s not good for me it’s just wastage of time after quit fashion institute I m becoming mentally upset suddenly my school owner came in my house and she said it’s yours school don’t worry u can join any time again.

I joined my old school job and home tutor job and again start work with full devotion, just like before I did earn good name in this field. Now when 2013 came in month of May that teacher as well as of fashion institute owner to contact my mom on phone call and conveyance of again my mom now our institute atmosphere and surrounding and teaching is good now u can send own daughter for learning. Please come with your daughter.

I will conveyance her again she learn and come in this field but no one knows what is behind its purpose to call me again institute. 6th June or 8th June 2013 I was went one day with mom and he tried and said my mom she leaves me alone with him but my mom said if u want to talk so talked in front of mine.  On that day when I was reached there only for visit he hold my hand and said to me like that and treat me very special like just I m his family member.

He was trying to free with me, and said to my mom please give your daughter hand in my hand its means to say in our culture just like anyone beg your hand it understand here  for marriage. He talked my mom indirectly for marry but my mom not understand his cleverness at last he conveyance me for join once again fashion study and he said I will trained you within 6 months and he say I will give you opportunity to build a good name and earn money and will sponsor for your art work and give u links for more spread your art work in other countries.  He shows me his fashionable costumes and fine arts work and painting.

I liked his work but I not know his clever mind and his purpose why he wants to train me in fashion designing. Without fee. After few days 12th June 2013 I joined his fashion institute that institute only for girls, he has kept his  setup was in commercial building there I went next day he said to me my business partner was before my student she was gave me benefits then I teach her she gave me 1 million rupees.

Here only girl stay and who give me benefits.  If u give me benefits I will teach u all work within 6 months that other institute learn 4 to 5 years so give me all techniques of your parents specially your father my both parents are textile designers and he knows my parents are designer. He says to me why u want to make a designer many peoples in world that are not designers and they live  I said it’s my passion and I m interested in this field.

Basically I not understand many things during three months that I spend and worked there he did trapped me of his bad purpose but I was don’t know basically he wants a labor that worked under his supervision and he wants to do sex with female students   he do sex with female students but no other girls knows even I was not know he do with hide in private room he not wants I will be successful in this field.

12th June when I was joined his fashion institute he say to me here u do all work just like u do all work in your house he said to me hang my clothes and do  press I feel bad why I hold his clothes and pressed and hang his  clothes in cupboard.

He forced me all to do work like maid or female servants do work of other houses like washing clothes, cleaning of house, making food, pressing clothes, worked in kitchen, do work of personal  of house owner just like do massage of my head and do clean my wardrobe and cupboard and manage my all things and make a budget of grocery shopping.

He gave me first day full protocol just like I m his wife or queen. He said to me when I hold your hand then u feels anything I not understand his conversation. I said I not felt anything. I not know his bad mind first day he teach me how I make a portrait he give me instructions.

I follow his instructions and I start make a portrait and little bit work on Corel  draw of making fashion designs and textile he gave me instruction how I used tools of Corel draw. I start to learn new things there I was too much passionate about my work but I not know what will happen with me in future.


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