My Experience with Psychotic depression Part 5

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I had terrible condition of mine  since 2013 to 2015 due to depression and psychosis because if I am passing  by chance on that place then every each and every thing  recall in mind and brain and made eyes vision and its painful and I wept three month all scenario and atmosphere and surroundings and conversation and work too much do upset me and disturb me mentally day by day passing my mentally condition is going critical. I have  difficulty in breathing and I have afraid and fear when I saw anything that related past then I go in fear and too much have afraid and I weep a lot.

 

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I have fear afraid stuff toys and cat when I see cat I did hide cat then that not panic me. negative thoughts came in mind that related upset me and disturb and hurt and give fear and lots of tears and in psychosis I have see things that not related reality its was illusion and delusion that I couldn’t understand  before I felt anyone touch my body privates part and but its was only thought not reality its happened and felt due to past bad incident. I have too much passion of art and fashion designing want to learn and do work but that bad man jealous and not want I spend my life in success before in psychosis i felt he see me and listen me and he did control myself and thoughts but its not reality its was lie in depression that all things not exist. My body always became tired and restless and lots of body aches internally and externally.

 

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My Experience with Psychotic depression Part 4

 

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Since 2013 When I was left that institute then my condition is too much bad I weep a lot and I have difficulty in breathing and than at time my mind and brain give MSG that he can see me and listen me and he did control my thoughts and myself by magic but its was truth he did magic on my each and every thing and I want to take revenge of that bad man ( Teacher) he did with me sexual harassment and then my brain is  giving MSG its happening with me all by magic even he knows about female menstrual circle and say take a packet pad and keep in this cupboard I bought a packet of pad and keep another cupboard even give me some things and say keep all these in your house fridge and i will be take soon he do all girls keep own cellphone in his drawer and hand bag keep in side place one day he see when I am not reach in his trap then he kick me out and say leave my place of that institute here only that girls with me that give me benefits and do sex with me and give me benefits of painting and fashion designing other girls has not allow to come and spend time there and work there.

 

 

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when my condition is too much bad hallucination and illusion and delusion is happening with me like hear sounds in whispering form and  see things in shadow foam and and see things in air move like a small thread. even slowly slowly a fear and afraid is going on top than 4 months September to December 2013 my mentally health state is not good and physically also i have bad and negatives thoughts before its look anyone put thoughts and its terrible but now i know there are own thoughts but before look and anyone reads my thoughts and they do harm me

 

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My Experience with Psychotic Depression: Part 3

 

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I spend three months  of summer on  that bad institute as well as bad teacher that he was not able to say teacher even human. he is a stain on humanity.  my thinking is say  he is devil. I did work in house chores and art work also I have take first step to make a portrait  and fashion designing in coral draw software. daily when I was go there first do clean whole house and their things he do work forcefully of house chores and even his personal work. He talk with me every time sex to do but I say every time its wrong its sin its only do husband and wife and I am here to learn art and fashion designing not here came sex basically that man not good.

 

 

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I want to learn paintings but he not want to  teach me about painting and even fashion designing only more than 2 or 3 days teach me about how make portrait and designs on coral draw  after daily house chore I start my work to make portrait and after sit on computer to make fashion and as well as textile designing. Even first day when I went there on that day he give me juice and my mom also i not know what he did mixed in juice and meal that  like time was passing he give me and other girls of meal but i not know what has inside meal. every time he talked magic that i know each and every thing and listen and see. His ( bad man ) conversation has stuck in my mind and brain and i went in depression and psychosis and feel hearing sound that he called my name but in not clear sound its like whispering.my mind and brain always stuck in past and I felt he can see me and listen me but before I not know its illness of brain disorder  but now mind is clear its are hallucination and illusion and delusion.

 

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My Experience with Psychotic Depression: Part 2

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This incident had happened  since last three years before when I was go daily there institute as well as he made home basically that bad man ( teacher) do work in house that he were taken on rent but not sure that house his or not he keep only girls to learn this fashion designing on  free of cost but no one known what he has in  own bad mind and plans and have  bad intention That he has own mind basically

He wants labor and wants to do physical relationship. He do and keep other girls physical relationship when any girl not came in his trap then he do kick of that girl just like when I not give him permission to do physical relationship then he touch my body forcefully. One another girl he kick because other girl not made victim of his physical relationship. He is not able to say teacher. He is a criminal.

 

 

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He take work two students one is mine and other girl also of commercial building and home  forcefully house chores.just like washing clothes and other houses accessories and dish washing cooking and pressing clothes. He do clean all house me and another girl because we not give him permission to do and keep physical relationship when he saw these two girls not came in my trap then he do another one magic or did myself his bad man intention was not good. He teach and do learn fashion designing and graphic designing on those girls that make daily victim of his physical relationship.

 

 

 

When he touch my body forcefully then on that day I am go in depression and psychosis disorder. And after I have leave that  place since 2013 17th September  Since 2013 to 2016 time period was too much terrible and panic and i have fear and afraid i wept a lot still sometime I weep. I have still hallucination, illusion, delusion, depression, I am suffering from this illness and try to do fight of this  illness.

 

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